I know many of you were expecting a show on July 4th since I’ve taken a break from conducting broadcasts. But I am ashamed to admit that I’ve fallen off the wagon and conducted myself in copious amounts of drinking to celebrate America’s birthday. I’m starting to become aware of alcohol becoming an issue in my life. I’m not trying to sound like an attention whore, but I need to acknowledge the obvious.
Alcohol is meant to be a substance of occasional adult leisure, but I am starting to notice that I don’t feel like I’m having a “good time” unless I’m buzzed and/or drunk. This is something that I’ve become recently self-aware of, and I can’t let it continue. Moreover, I know that many young people listen to my broadcast, and I’m unwittingly promoting this type of self-destructive behavior to them. Which is not my intention what so ever.
So with that said, I am going to extend my break for a little bit longer, for I need to deal with the issue at hand. I’m not stupid, I know I will never quit boozing. But I need to be an adult about it before it becomes a very serious issue in both life and in health. So my sincerest apologies to all those expecting the show, but I have to deal with this issue on my own.
Don’t worry, I will be back. But I can not be someone who is trying to promote bettering one’s self, while I need to do “bettering” of my own. I love all those who listen (even the haters), you are what keeps me believing that I actually matter. For the majority of the people in my real life are only there for what I can materially give them.